Sunday, August 23, 2009

Superstitions and Farewells

Amit and I just got back from Austin (our second home). And as always we had a blast with great friends. The boys has a guys night out on Friday (dont ask me what they did..) but my friend Ritu and I went to Trudy's to get the night started with a Mexican Martini. A must have if you are ever in the area. My other friend Faiza joined us there and then we headed to the movies - The Ugly Truth - pretty funny actually. Then came Saturday...
So the reason for our trip. Our friends Ritu and Sahir have decided to quit their jobs and go globe trotting for the next four months, after which they will move to Canada where Sahir will attend grad school for a year. We have known Sahir for over 8 years now and have shared some amazing times with him. Like the time we were at Pete's Piano bar and Amit and him decided to sing old Hindi songs after the night was over. If you know Sahir you will understand why this is funny because the boy doesnt speak Hindi much. Ritu came into our lives in 2004 when she took a job in good old Texas and decided to come to Austin with the whole gang that summer. This is when the two met and ofcourse Sahir was smitten over her and asked me to get her telephone number for him. The rest is now history... As a married couple you always look for other fun married couples that you can be yourselves with and this is one that Amit and I have shared many weekends with and had fun times with. Like my birthday weekend when we went tubbing down the Guadalupe river and the boys were stuck looking after the two of us girls. Canada is like home to me since my brother, other family and lots of friends live there. Normally I spend about a week there every year - but with Sahir and Ritu there now I know I will have to spend 2. We will dearly miss them and hope they have an amazing time discovering the world.

Do you believe in Superstitions? On Saturday Amit and I helped S&R wrap and pack a few things and in the evening we were going to have a farewell party for the couple. In the afternoon the boys left to run some errands and Ritu and I did the same. I am not a big believer in superstitions but for some reason on Saturday I had to believe something was off. Like the stars werent aligned in the correct position. On our way to the store I got into my first wreck ever on the intersection of 39th street and Lamar Blvd. This intersection will be forever imprinted in my mind. Thank God no one was hurt and the car's bumper and side panel were damaged but not badly. Accidents happen and I am still not sure whose fault it is, but since it was my first wreck for some reason its bothering me a bit. I keep thinking about what I could have done differently. Oh well too late now eh! Later that day Ritu and I headed to pick up the food for the party and on our way there we almost got into another wreck so this really really really made me wonder that something was really off. The rest of the night we joked about how Ritu and I should not be driving in the same car anywhere since we were jinxed and we were glad that the farewell party was a walking distance from S&R's apt. Since I had heels on, the three of them thought it was funny to make me aware of every step and bump on the road incase I tripped. Even when we got to our friend's place they asked me not to go out on the patio incase I fell over or ran into the glass door. I am glad that the car was still drivable and Amit and I could return home to Dallas safely today. May be the bad spell is over and just lasted the day haha...Anyway we are sad that our friends are moving away but we definitely got to share one more awesome weekend with them before they leave.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Letting my guard down..

While browsing blogs several months ago I ended up at this one - Jessica and her husband lost their young daughter Tuesday to cancer in January. I started to follow their blog when Tuesday was in the hospital fighting to stay alive and have followed it ever since. I dont know this family personally, have never met them - but my heart aches for their loss. I admire their strength to share their life with friends, family and strangers like me. I wonder if trusting the world with your deepest thoughts takes a load of ones chest. Its really hard to know the right thing to say to someone who has lost a loved one - young or old. I know I am the worst at it - but I have realized all it takes is a "How are you doing" and acknowledging the hole. A lot of us tend to avoid the uncomfortable conversation but may be if we didnt it wouldnt be so uncomfortable. I wonder if I could ever be so open with my emotions and thoughts. As far as I can remember I dont think I was ever open about my truest deepest feelings with anyone. I always feared that if I did share them with someone and let my guard down - they would come back to hurt me. That people would use them against me in some form or the other.. silly I know. I guess its all about trust - trusting your family, friends, spouse and especially existence. Taking that leap of faith and knowing that at the end everything will be ok. And so here is to you Jessica for giving me the strength to start sharing my feelings - even if its in the most simple of situations.